Regrets

The accusations that I received since you left are so damn wrong, I have been in and out of the hospital this past week until this afternoon. Whatever is going on has nothing to do with me expect for one thing. I am hurt and in disbelief of how you destroyed my (our) lives with no explanation. Thats all I wanted was to know, after all I suffered and worked to provide for you these past couple of years. Don't blame me for anything else that I didn't do, blame me for loving your, taking care of you, worshiping you and trusting you.

I will always love you and regret that I fell in love with you after all of this. You were the best thing and the worst that ever happened to me. I will do my best to move on and remember the love that we use to share and hate what you have become. Please return my property and my heart.

Still will always love you no matter.

You

I wish I could do go back in time and fix whatever was broken but I can't. I never wanted to do anything to make you choose to leave me, I am so sorry. Your love is incredible and I miss it so much. I wish so much that you will return and allow me repair what I broke with you. Everyday is empty and painful, some think I will get over this but I know I won't, I will try and move on with the plans that i made for us and see what happens. I wish that there were things I could show and tell you to give you the opportunity to see certain truths but you will see. I am going to hate you getting hurt worst then I ever could, its not my place to explain with out you wanting to know but just watch everything around you see what is really going on, there is so much that you don't know.

Ultimately the only thing you need to know is that I will always love you and be there, where ever you are I will be there. Loving you is still my first desire, you loving me is my hope. Some how in some way all of this will be made right.

Loving you forever Mai!
Dionte

Home From The Hospital

Hello Mai,
I just got home from the hospital and my heart is doing a little better, but emotionally I am done. I wish we could have tried to seriously work things out, I hope that you can give me the opportunity to reconcile with you. You are all I want and whatever I need to do to really show you I will. I cannot imaging being with anyone else, I always tell you that. Please just give me an opportunity to try and make things right thats all I am asking. I love working hard for you and things were getting so much better. I made extra money that I didnt tell you about to surprise you with the engagement and other things I wished you would have gave us a little more time. You would've been much more happy with what was going on, I had rented a better apartment called the medows for us to move into in August, then in January we were to move to Atlanta into the house I am having built that we both would've owned. I had gotten certified as a casting director and was to do my first major film in February 09. I had already got an advanced. I do not want to do this with out you, its because of you that everything became possible. Mai, I will always love you and need you. Please atleast think about it, please!!!!!!!!!! I truly do need you.

We Could Have Overcame Anything

Dear Mai,
We could have overcame anything, life without you is so damaging and not possible. You were the first I truly love and that last. No one will ever take your place, ever.

Loving You Has Been My Pleasure

My Heart, My Soul, My Life.
I never thought that this day would ever exist, I always knew that we would grow old together, this I never doubted. Your love has made me a better man then I could have ever hoped to be on my own. I always believed that we could conquer and accomplish anything, I still do. I am having a very hard time knowing that I have to try to live with out you, never thought love could damage a body and soul so bad. I believe that you are my true love, my only love that I will always be waiting on, looking for, and missing. This whole situation has made me realize that even though I didnt take you for granted, really not sure what happened. All I know is that I will forever mis you, forever have the pain of not sharing your love, and forever feel the coldness and rejection. Mai, I will still hope to marry you one day and prepare for your hopeful return. My love for you is unconditional and whatever the problem is can be worked out and dealt with, you are worth more to me than you will ever know. Keep your heart and mind pure and always know I will be there for you whenever you need me. Always, Forever my love, loving you has been my pleasure.

Missing You Will Forever Hurt